Another quiet moment in nature. All I hear is birds chirping and distant sounds of people starting their early morning hike.
There really isn’t anything like coffee and quiet time outside. It truly is bliss.
When I sit outside and enjoy these kind of moments, I am always conflicted. I feel such joy for being here and being present in the moment, and then I am flooded with sadness. Sadness, because somewhere along the way, I stopped taking time out to enjoy these moments.
Life got busy and chaotic. These beautiful, still moments became few and far between because they started to feel like a luxury of time I didn’t have nor deserved. I began to put work and others ahead of my own self.
How can peaceful moments in nature be a luxury, when they have always been the fuel that kept me going? Decades ago my life revolved around sunrises and sunsets – I was present & intentional about how I fueled my spirit and soul. Outdoors; Nature – has always been my fuel.
In the last 5 years, I have turned into a hermit. Chaotic work life, heartbreak, distrust in myself and others…it all caved in at once and hiding out felt more natural than letting the sunlight into the parts of me that were dark.
Here I am sitting in my bosses multi-million dollar vacation home in the middle of the mountains, and it’s the nature surroundings that I long for, not the luxuries of this home.
There are so many things my mind tells me to do BEFORE I can be happy.
*Lose weight. *Get healthy. *Find my worth., etc. The truth is that happiness isn’t a destination. It isn’t something you arrive at. It is something you experience along way.
I realized that this weekend as I sit here amongst the trees.
I didn’t need anything but nature to recenter, recharge, and refuel my soul.
This little girl in me who loves nature and who loves to explore is ready to come out and play. If anyone deserves it, I do.
